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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

7.11.2009

Mike and I continue to praise God, for everyone He has sent our way, who has come along side us, and lightened our burden. He has faithfully provided for each need we've had. We also praise Him for the family and friends who have encircled us, reminding us we're not alone in all of this. It can be a frightening journey at times. Some days, it takes all we have to just put one foot in front of the other.

Everyday is a surprise in what battle Mike has to fight. Today, Mike's eyes are very bloodshot and his veins in his chest and abdomen area are bright blue. I suppose this clot is still causing Mike's blood to find another route.

We made a tiny progress with food and fluids today. Mike ate 3 small meals today, and he had an Ensure shake. It was enough for me to do a little happy dance. :) He still seems dehydrated to me, but we'll leave that diagnosis for the doctor on Monday. The unbelievable, constant indigestion and hiccups still plague Mike. I hate seeing him suffer with this.

Mike asked me to take a short walk up our driveway this evening when it cooled off. I held on to him tightly because he was very wobbly and walked sideways at times. His balance has been off since he came out of the hospital. He couldn't go far because of shortness of breath.

All in all though, it was a good day and I enjoyed sharing time with Mike.

Zac and I got outside this morning and took care of the tree limbs that we needed to burn. It was quite a workout.....most especially for me......but we had it done pretty quickly. I would be lost without my kids help. I have had to lean so hard on them the past two years.

Monday marks the two year anniversary of this all starting. It has been such a hard two years, and it has stretched me to the point where I've doubted God had any idea, of how much I could take. It has been extremely difficult seeing Mike become so thin and frail. I don't want to lose Mike. I cling to every hope that God can turn this around for us. I would never be the same without him.

We are blessed to have your love, your prayers and your support.
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