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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

7.29.2009

Today was a day of overwhelming blessings! Mike's and my heart is filled with so much gratefulness.

There have been days when it has felt like our family tripped and fell into a deep, dark cavern two years ago; out of earshot from God, with our cries for help. Tears have fallen to a point when there didn't feel like there was anymore left. But then there have been days when God's mercy and grace have not only filled our cup full, but has filled it to the brim, spilling over, down the side, with His faithfulness and provision. He has not only given us Himself...but has blessed us with all of you. What a gift! What a blessing! What a lesson learned! His tenderness to take care of His children overwhelms us.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers today. Mike has felt okay most of the day. He ate well for breakfast and lunch, but when dinner rolled around, he was a little nauseated. So he took some Phengren, and around 7:30, asked me to scramble him three eggs and a piece of toast. I was thankful he got 3 meals down today.

He had hoped to resume physical therapy today, but didn't make it. I think just getting up and going is a big challenge for him. He is doing fairly well getting awake before I leave for work. This way I can change his dressings and get him his breakfast and medications before I leave, but I think his pain medicine takes the edge off of things enough to lull him back to sleep. Plus he has admitted that he gets a little depressed when I'm away at work, so sleep has a way of passing time for him.

My hope is that he'll gain some weight and some strength, so he can get back into his studio and shop. I'm also optimistic that when his sister and brother-n-law arrive in September, they will be able to keep him company at times.

We finally accepted an application for Mike to receive a disability parking pass. He is having such trouble walking right now, running out of breath, that it will be helpful. Mike just hates anything that makes him feel, or look, disabled. I'm praying God will open up a whole new life for Mike because of this disability, and will use him to bless others. In many ways, he already is doing this. So many share with me the blessing Mike is to them. It's beautiful how God turns bad into good.

Thank you so much for loving us, and giving so much of yourselves to us. We are truly blessed!
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