Mike has made improvement over the past couple of days. He is trying hard to eat more, and thankfully, his experiences of throwing up hasn't ruined his taste for the Ensure shakes. He's trying to get one or two of those in each day.

The new medication seems to be helping, because the nausea hasn't been a problem and he seems to be able to eat more. I'm not so much worried about the size of his portions, as much as I'm concerned about his nourishment.

Last night our daughter-in-laws' birthday was being celebrated, so we were invited to Matt and Jill's home, to eat pizza and play the game "Are You Smarter Than a Fifth Grader" with all of the family. Mike did well. He ate a slice of pizza, played the game with all of us, and even sat outside to watch the grandsons play in the yard. During the game, he was acting like his usual happy and goofy self. For a moment, life felt right again, but even though that did my heart a world of good, it tears me apart coming back to reality.

This week is a wallop of good and sad memories for me. It celebrates, not only my own birthday, but my daughter-in-laws birthday, my first grandsons' 3rd birthday, Matt and Jill's 8th wedding anniversary, and the 2 year anniversary of my dad passing away. It's hard to celebrate, with so much pain and uncertainty. Especially when it involves important men in my life.

I'm in a strange place right now. Needing to be strong, when I've lived my whole life always having someone strong, watching over me. That probably sounds pitiful, but the truth is the truth. Mike has always cherished me, protected me, and took care of the difficult. Life is just a little scary and out of place for me right now. I'm not comfortable in the shoes I'm walking in today. So many new responsibilities I'm unfamiliar with, and so many hats I'm needing to wear.

I'm thankful for my faith and trust in my Heavenly Father. I know He is watching out for me even though I don't understand His will for my life right now. I just keep placing all my trust in Him to see me through this.

I love all of you and appreciate the role God has given you in my life. I'm so grateful for your love and support. I'm so thankful for all of your prayers. I only pray God will allow me to repay you one day with my love, prayers and support.