Last evenings meeting with the financial advisor was pleasant.  He was gentle and kind, and prayed with Zac and I about my situation.  There are no "easy" answers, but we are leaving things in God's hands, and agreed to take a few days to think things over.

God has been good to me.  He has provided when everything looked the bleakest.  I trust Him to continue to provide for me.  It may involve change, which doesn't always come easily for me, but I know I will adapt with His help.

When I'm not working, I'm reading.  And if I'm not doing that, I'm sleeping.  The stress from of all this wears me out more easily, more quickly.  I struggle with concentrating.  The absence of Mike in my life is incredibly painful.  I'm so out of balance.  I miss his strength.  I miss his comfort.  I miss his sense of humor. I miss his protection.  I miss being important to somebody.  My mind can't yet get around the finality of all of this.  It only makes me long for heaven...to be with Mike.

Amidst all that I'm feeling, I'm incredibly grateful for each of you who are remembering to lift me in prayer.  The absence of that, would make everything more unbearable.