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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

1.03.2010

New Shoes

I recently received a new pair of shoes and am trying to get use to them.  They look great on the outside, but there is a lot of discomfort on the inside.  One side seems to be more painful than the other.  This is because both feet aren't the same.  Mine are unique.  I'm making adjustments where necessary, because they were given to me, and the person who gave this gift to me, only intended them for my good.  I'm finding, the more I wear them, I'm adjusting to the pinch, or the shoe has begun to take on an easier fit.  They just needed a little time to break in.


Such is my life right now.  I'm adjusting to a new way of living.  It is VERY uncomfortable at the moment, to say the least, and I'm tempted to not want any part of it.  I'm guilty of feeling numb and staring off into space, as well as falling apart, griping and agonizing.  But I'm trying to get use to the new fit. 


I'm receiving advice, well meaning as it can be.  Everyone has their own solution to my problem.  But, nobody has worn 'these particular pair of shoes' before, so even if you think you know the adjustment I need to make, I pray you will at least be patient with me until I discover this myself.  I'm sure one day, when I will look back on this, I'll see the good, because I know God's plan for my life, is only meant for my good.


Thank you for your continued understanding, prayers, love and support. 
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