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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.
I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.
At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett
"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)
3.24.2014
Chloe and Hailey
But now...back to the computer!
February was a rough month right from the very start!!! On February 1st, I had to put my little Hailey to sleep. It broke my heart. I had never thought I would be the one doing this. It was always said that Mike would have to be the one. But, seeing her go down hill so quickly and seeing blood in her stools told me she wasn't going to recover from whatever was wrong.
What hit me doubly hard though, was losing Chloe three days later. She had been having mini seizures constantly, then right in the middle of her nap a HUGE one hit her. We rushed her to the vet. They tried valium and other sedatives to help her, but she let out the most terrifying yelping I have ever heard, and my heart knew what the right thing was to do. So, both of my babies went to doggy heaven so quickly.
Maybe it was a blessing. But they were gone so quickly! The shock is slowly wearing off and the reality is setting in. I was tremendously blessed to have been their mommy!
First Grandchild Sleepover-
We picked Ethan up early for my daughter, since school was getting out an hour early the last couple of days. My granddaughter, Emma, takes a long nap during that time and I offered to help out. I get great joy helping with any of my grandchildren whenever I can.
So yesterday, we picked up Ethan, took him home to pick up his things, and then headed to our house. We played a while with a new coloring book he received, before heading off to Las Palmas for some Mexican food for dinner. Yum!
From there we headed home to watch the DVD's, Turbo and Monster University. My favorite was Turbo! It kept me laughing. Ethan was laying in his sleeping bag on the living room floor watching the movie.
After I kept falling asleep, and at the end of the last movie, Ethan crawled into my bed and he and I both fell soundly asleep. Only, when Glenn got in on the other side, Ethan rolled over towards him and according to Glenn, "He felt like a hot rock" up against him! So Glenn slept in another room. (giggle)
The next morning was the best fun for Ethan. He got to go eat breakfast with Glenn at the donut shop. According to Ethan, they both ate 3 donuts each! I stayed home since I have been on my diet for over a year now. 35 pounds down.....at least 5 more to go!
We just had the best time! I'm looking forward to having Drew over next! Maybe this next month sometime.