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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

6.14.2008

A Tough Week


Mike has had a rough day feeling extremely weak and being sick to his stomach. We decided it isn't in his best interest for him to accompany me to the funeral in Florida. We only expect him to be worse Monday and Tuesday. Our son, daughter, and son-in-law will be staying close by to help Mike if he should need it. Please pray that Mike stays safe while I'm gone.

My daughter-in-law, Jill, will be accompanying me on the trip for the funeral. I'm grateful to have someone else to help make sure I make the connection correctly, and get on the right plane in St. Louis. :) It will also be comforting to have someone else traveling with me.

It's been a pretty rough week, with Mike losing his job, my stepfather passing away, and treatment week for Mike, on top of that. I'd like to say I'm handling things well, but simply put, I'm weary and tired. Where I'm heading, isn't going to be easy for me, for many reasons. And leaving a sick husband behind has my heart torn.

My son will also be trying to care for his 22 month old son, Drew, by himself, when he has an employment test on Monday. I pray that Drew handles his mommy being away, and that Matt is able to rest well, so he can be prepared for this test. His other grandparents are here in town and I know they will help him.

My heart wants to remind me God is in control, but at times my mind wants to beg to differ. It's just been a difficult, long year. We would appreciate your continued prayers.

"Under His wings I am safely abiding, Though the night deepens and tempests are wild; Still I can trust Him, I know He will keep me, He has redeemed me, and I am His child." -Cushing

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