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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.
I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.
At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett
"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)
6.06.2009
While Mike stayed off his feet, I quickly ran up to Feltner's and purchased him some cushy, running socks, to see if they would help him walk easier. I'm not sure they are giving him any relief, if his walking this evening as anything to show. But, I happened upon a buy one at regular price and get the second pair 1/2 off sale which helped. It also looks like Mike may be taking his daughter's advice about using Eucerin on his hands and feet, as recommended for hand and foot syndrome.
I spent the day mowing....a-g-a-i-n! I'm not sure I can keep up this pace. It's just a lot of work with an acre of property, so I may need to hire someone to help. And I think I broke my promise when I said I wouldn't try and burn the tree limbs we cut down last week. I started off just burning some lawn debris...and one thing led to another. And, because I may had stacked the tree limbs too close to the fire pit, I spent a lot of time just trying to burn some of the leafy branches, because I was afraid the soot that was still burning, but floating towards my huge pile, might catch all of that on fire. Mike would probably never forgive me if I burned down the house. I eventually stopped when half the pile was gone. I'll finish it up another day. Too much work; too little time and energy!
Tomorrow I will be attending church where I work. They would like to introduce me to their congregation, and they feel it will help me to see how their service runs. I still don't know if Mike will be up to going with me. We'll just need to see how he's doing in the morning.
Please continue to pray for Mike and I as we live with all of these new challenges. Mike especially is struggling with not being able to do very much right now. It's one pain for him when he doesn't have the physical strength to do much. Then he sees me trying to do these jobs he use to do, and he gets really depressed. There is just no easy way around all of this. I'm having trouble trying to keep ahead of everything, and trying to comfort him, by making it seem like it's not a big deal. But seriously, I'm really tired.
We love you all, and know you'll keep us lifted up.
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