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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

7.27.2009

We have been blessed to have Mike feeling good for three days in a row!

He woke up this morning wanting to go to Cracker Barrel for breakfast. He didn't eat everything, but made a good dent with what was on his plate. Afterwards, we went by to visit with his mom briefly, whom he hasn't seen since Mother's Day. I know that made her happy, but I could also see the pain on her face, noting the amount of weight Mike has lost since she last saw him.

After a nice long nap, Mike shared some time in the afternoon visiting with our former family doctor who is now retired. That time meant so much to Mike. He loved the fellowship, chatting about different topics, shared health challenges, their shared interest in woodworking. Mike hopes to share more time with him.

So tomorrow is only a few hours away and I'm already shaking inside. I guess with as many things that have gone wrong with Mike's health the last couple of months, I'm fearing "stop the heart" kind of bad news. I'm trying to exercise my faith and trust God to help us through all of this, but tonight feels a little scary...and calm seems almost impossible.

I don't know what to do with these feelings, other than turn them over to praising God. I'm so grateful for these wonderful three days God has blessed us with, in Mike feeling better. I will continue to Praise God for His mercifulness, grace and constant blessing in our life. And ALL of you have made such a difference in our life. Thank you with every breath that is in us!

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