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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

9.22.2009

Mike and I are not resting well.  This cough and congestion he's had for about two weeks now, keeps us both awake quite a bit.  We've called the oncology office to see if there is anything additional we could do to improve this, but have only been recommended to try a different allergy medication.  Maybe when we go in to see them next week they will hear for themselves, what this cough sounds like, and possibly suggest something better to help.

Briefly this morning, Mike got a little down with his appearance.  With the four areas we're needing to keep dressing over now, it's understandable.  My heart aches as I see him trying to cope.  He's so optimistic most of the time, that when he has moments of struggle, I know the pain is really intense.  My heart feels like a dish rag been wrung out.  There aren't any words for moments like these.  I just hold him tight and tell him we'll get through this one day at a time.

We enjoyed dinner out this evening at Western Sizzling with Mike's sister and brother-in-law.  Mike put away a 9 oz steak and bake potato!  Now that's what I like seeing!!!

Thank you for praying for us. 
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