I Can't Let Go

It's November! The crisp days and the gorgeous color of the leaves are breath taking.  A doctor appointment in Fayetteville became a beautiful drive going north.

 But it is also those same signs of the season that remind me of four years ago, letting go of my grip of Mike.  Many probably think that after this time I should be finished with the grief of losing my husband, Matt and Amber's  father, but memories are so etched in my mind and heart.  I believe this heartache will never leave.  The sounds, the holiday decorations in the stores, the preparations for family to be together....Mike's face is what I see.  And the deep pain resurfaces and I don't quite know what to do with it.  This is the month to express gratitude and thanksgiving.  And I do....of the wonderful man Mike was.  The loving father to our children and grandchildren.  We were truly blessed, and if he were still here, I would hug him tight and never let go.

Duck Tape Can Be a Hinderance or Possibly a Help

A month or more has flown by since I lasted posted here.  Glenn, my second husband, experienced a heart attack, and was hospitalized twice at two different locations.  Thankfully, he is doing so much better and regaining some of the energy he once had.

Around that same time I had food poisoning again (not Salmonella this time), and developed a bacterial infection, that with even four different antibiotics, still lingers.  The third treatment was painful, needing injections twice a day for a week.  Both sides of my hips are black and blue in addition to being very sore.  At least this fourth drug is oral again, and  I hope to find out soon if we're getting anywhere with this new drug.

Glenn and I have been busy planning, and teaching our four year old Sunday School class each week.  Our class is filled with mostly little boys which can make a very wild hour and half.  We try to stay at least three paces in front of them before they tie us up with duck tape.  But it might just come down to us duck taping them to the chairs to make any real progress.  What a joy to serve our Savior and our Rock.