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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

7.13.2009

"Because He bends down and listens, I will pray as long as I have breath!" Psalm 116:2
A dear friend shared this verse with me last week. It resonates what my heart continues to tell me. God loves us. He is always with us. Just as a loving father would kneel down to listen to his child, so does our Savior, listen to our trusting hearts. I pray it is within His will for Mike to be healed and restored to full health.
Mike has been able to stay up and awake over the weekend. He isn't doing much more than sitting, but he is staying awake. I think when I'm away, he tends to sleep the time away. When he's sleeping, he eats less. He didn't eat a lot yesterday, but he did get 2 meals down, and had another Ensure. Last night for dinner, all he wanted was soup. It was 250 calories, but Mike only ate half of that.
I could hear a rattle coming from Mike's lungs as he was breathing while he was sleeping this morning. He must have a lot of fluid building up. His blood pressure was also down this morning to 86/52, which leads me to think he's dehydrated. Mike has developed a rash on his back and is experiencing a lot of itching. It could be that his bilirubin count is escalated again, but generally when he experiences itching from that, it is all over his body. Mike doesn't want to do anything today, to have things checked out being, he has a doctor appointment for tomorrow morning with the internist.
I've been experiencing some flare symptoms myself, but I've given my body what it's needed the last few days.....some extra rest. There is always another day to "catch" up.

1 comment:

Carolyn Lacy said...

Beverly
I love the new look of your blog, it's very loving and inspiring. I am so thankful that Mike has been able to eat a little food. I pray his appointment with the Dr. gives him and you encouragement,hope and a good result. If we can help in any way, please let us know.
Carolyn and Russ