Joyful Heart Club

Tonight was the beginning of something new and uplifting.  My sister had inspired me with a monthly book club she's a part of in Texas.  She suggested I begin something like that here, and I took her advice.

We began a ladies night out with several friends this evening, enjoying eating dinner together at Colton's.  It was great fellowship.  I also met a new friend who lost her husband a couple of years ago.  Her story is almost identical to mine.  I was encouraged listening to her, just knowing someone else knew the pain that has been so deep and wrenching. 

I'm so thankful for a better day today.  I'm sure all of you are relieved to know it went better too.  I apologize for the roller coaster my life seems to be on right now.  I know it may be hard to believe, but I really am trying to live a spirit controlled life.  There is just so much anxiety in my present situation..that it is a moment by moment battle.

I was listening to a brief message from Beth Moore today.  She was sharing that anxiety is the result of feeling you've lost control of something...your life, your health, a situation, etc.  An anxious heart can weigh a person down, aging them, even killing them.  We can become fearful to the point it can immobilize us.  I knew exactly what she was describing.  I need to guard my heart.  I need to inspect it for ailments.  I need to keep my faith in God, and trust Him to work out all of these obstacles.  I keep putting my hands back into the situations, trying to "fix" them myself.  And of course, I fail, and they rattle me.

I praise God for today.  I praise God for good friends and fellowship.  I praise God for all of you who continually lift me and my family up in prayer.  I'm so deeply grateful.