First, I would like to thank everyone for your thoughts and prayers for our family during this past week.  Facing another challenge was the last thing we all anticipated, or needed, but knowing so many had us in their thoughts and prayers, was a deep comfort.

Four months have passed since we lost Mike. Marking that by losing Mike's mom too, was a lot to handle. I'm trying to focus on the truth that God is Sovereign, and is in complete control; and less on the fact, I don't understand why things have happened as they have. 

I'm grateful He slowed me down, by allowing me to get sick.  That kept me in town, instead of going to California with my sister as planned this past weekend.  It allowed me to be present for the last few days of Mike's mom's life.  That was incredibly important to me...not only to do what I think Mike would have wanted me to do, but to comfort Mom McSheehy the best I knew how, and be available for my children during this time. 

Life is changing quickly and that can be very scary for me at times.  It chases me into my shell, wanting to shut the world out.  I'm trying to keep moving forward though.  I want to make some determined steps to begin living again.  I need to find some of the things I use to enjoy and return to doing them.  I need to have things to look forward in a day...and make these four walls of my home stop pressing in on me.
 
I have an appointment coming up April 9th, that is really important.  I'm asking God for His wisdom and direction.  I know He'll provide the strength I'll need to obey and follow His will.  The outcome of this appointment will likely have me making some large decisions.

There are plenty of areas here you can support me and be praying with me about. Perhaps, I will continue journaling my experiences here or possibly this will only be a journaled space, where I can look back and attest to God's faithfulness in my life.  Either way, I thank you for your loving support.

As I have mentioned plenty times before; music has always been a blessing to me.  It inspires me.  Calms me.  Teaches me.  Even rebukes me.  Some times I'm blessed by just the shear melody and tune.  Other times, the words speak my heart.  I have added a new song today.  The lyrics are at the bottom of this blog.  I pray you will take some time to just listen to the melody and words.  My prayer is that it will bless you too.

Always,
Beverly