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In 2007, I began my original website, Sonshine's Haven. In 2007, it was turned into a blog and used to keep family updated on my first husband's fight with liver cancer. He passed away November of 2009. We were married for 34+ wonderful years and this journals some of that grief process I've gone through.

I have since remarried another widower, but Mike is missed dearly, and will always be a big part of my life.

At times, all of us will be called to act as witnesses to the suffering of another. We will be unable to affect the outcome physically. Words will fail us. Prayer will seem futile. And yet, the act of bearing witness to someone else's trials is a sacred sorrow that offers and astounding glimpse of eternal joy." by Ginger Garrett

"Being willing to stay with a loved one throughout their travail, can be difficult....YES! But offering yourselves as faithful companions on a dark and dreadful journey can be an unmeasured blessing." (paraphrased by me)

7.31.2008

Change of Plans

The procedure to remove fluid from my dad's lungs didn't occur until 4:30 this afternoon. After the procedure they were to wait one hour then do another chest x-ray to see if the fluid had returned. However, after the procedure, my father could hardly breathe. He was in extreme pain and could not catch his breath. The doctors were telling him to cough really hard and that would help, but due to the pain from the tubes in his side from his liver and this fluid-draining procedure, he couldn't manage to get a breath. He finally was given morphine and then after an hour or more of being unable to catch his breath, the pain began to subside. The x-ray is clear and after speaking with him on the phone a minute ago, he is feeling much better. He is still short of breath, but they believe he will be able to go home tomorrow.

Of course, after the days of being told he'd change rooms and get discharged and multiple complications, it's really hard to say that for certain. Please pray for his recovery and for my mother who is driving back home tonight. She doesn't mention it often, but she has chronic pain and has been off her medication today because she ran out and she hasn't eaten much these past few days. Please pray for both to regain their strength and for my mom as she cares for my dad.

The Latest

UPDATE: My father's chest x-ray revealed fluid in his lungs due to the amount of fluids they gave him during his surgery. This is causing the oxygen level problem and congestion. They will remove the fluid with a needle and if this clears up the problem then they say they will release him this evening. His bilirubin count is also a 9 which shows it is moving in the right direction.



My father is working on getting released from CCU. I'm not certain if that means he'll go to another floor or be able to go home. The hold up right now is his bilirubin count which is over 11, normal being 1. Also his oxygen/co2 level is lower than they'd like it to be without him using oxygen. My mother is also concerned about chest congestion he has developed while in the hospital. My mother plans to return to Russellville briefly if my father is not released because she has run out of her own medication and clothes and will need to gather what she needs from home.

That's all I know as of right now. I will continue to update and we appreciate your prayers and support.

7.30.2008

Afternoon Update

My dad's blood pressure is doing much better. They are supposed to move him to a regular room this afternoon/evening. He will be staying overnight.

Thank you for your prayers. I will continue to update you if I hear any more news.

Wednesday Morning Update

My father is still in the Critical Care Unit at Baptist and will remain there until his blood pressure problem is resolved. They can not move him to another floor in the hospital with his blood pressure so low. They think the pain medication they are have him on is complicating matters and making his blood pressure worse, but he needs it to help manage the pain he is in. My mother is hoping to hear more from the doctor later today. She won't be allowed to visit my dad again until later this afternoon.

Thank you for your prayers.

Current Update from Amber

Today was a very difficult day...and in saying that I'm holding back a bit. Today was incredibly rough. My father's surgery was long and complicated because in the doctor's words "they don't usually make it this long." They being people with stints in their livers due to cancer. So my father is breaking new ground in the fact that he's beating the cancer and the doctors didn't expect him to. So they placed tubes in his liver to keep it functioning properly. They aren't connected to any bags, but they are simply capped off. It is my understanding they will be there for at least two weeks until the doctors figure out how to handle this situation because they can't keep repairing the stints.

After surgery, my father was not doing well. To be honest, we weren't sure he was going to make it. They almost moved him to ICU because his blood pressure was dangerously low and they weren't sure if he was bleeding internally. But it has recovered now and he is in the Critical Care Unit at Baptist. They hope to release him tomorrow if he is doing better.

I'm sure I'm forgetting some details I wanted to share with you this evening, but I do want to ask for continued prayer for my dad. Please pray for his strength and complete healing and for wisdom for the doctors as they decide what steps to take next.

7.29.2008

Continued Update

Since I've been sending out bits and pieces of updates all afternoon, I thought I'd recap. My dad's surgery was almost 4 hours long this afternoon. Currently he is still in recovery. The surgery was very complicated. His blood pressure is very low, so they might give him a unit of blood to help. Once they do that and his blood pressure recovers they can give him pain medication. He is currently in a great deal of pain.

Please pray for his blood pressure to stabilize and for the nurses/doctors to help manage his pain.

Update from Amber again...

My father's surgery was 3 1/2 hours long and very complicated. He is in recovery right now and will be staying overnight at Baptist. I will have more detais later this evening.

Please be praying for his full recovery.

Update from Amber

My father's surgery was delayed an hour and he has just now been taken back to have his procedure. There is a possibility he will be able to go home tonight, but we won't find out for certain until later.

I will post more as soon as I hear back from my mother.

7.28.2008

Hanging In There

Today has gone a little better for Mike. Last night he was in quite a lot of pain, nauseated, and fairly miserable.

The procedure will begin at noon Tuesday. If everything goes as planned, Mike should be out of recovery and in his room by 3 p.m., going by how things have been before.

Please pray for Mike's safety, the procedure to go as comfortably as possible for Mike, that bleeding will be under control and to a minimum, and no further infection will develop.

Amber will blog an update. Thank you so much for your prayers.

"The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him, and He delivers them. Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him." Psalm 34:7-8

7.27.2008

The Power of Prayer


(The above picture was taken of Mike and Ethan on Thursday.)


Mike's infection continues to be under control with the antibiotic. The fever is gone, but the jaundice is weakening Mike, causing him to be breathless when barely moving. His stomach also continues to be touchy, so eating has been a hit and miss effort. (His doctor appointment last Thursday showed Mike had dropped six pounds so I'm hoping he won't continue to lose anymore.) The medications are helping to keep his nausea, itching, and pain under better control, but they are also causing him to sleep quite a bit. Evenstill, we're feeling grateful, because we know your prayers are helping to allow Mike to have this procedure done at the best possible time, with the least amount of pain.

Lost in all of this, is the blessing that Mike's tumor was smaller on the scan Thursday, and that is such an answer to prayer!!! We are so amazed by God's mercifulness and the power prayer can have. We know we are where we are today, because of God's grace, and your faithfulness to pray for us. Thank you!

"The Lord is my strong fortress. The godly run to Him and are safe!" Proverbs 18:10

7.26.2008

Doing Better

Mike's temperature broke late yesterday and he is doing better. He's a bright shade of yellow, but he slept well last night and he finally ate something this morning. Unless he takes another turn for the worse, it's possible we'll be able to hold out for the procedure, until Tuesday, as planned. But given the shade of jaundice he is today, it's more likely the doctor's will keep Mike longer on tubes and bags, to get the liver decompressed enough.

Thank you for your continued prayers for him.

"The Lord is a strong fortress. The godly run to him and are safe." Proverbs 18:10

7.25.2008

Update

Mike has developed an infection and is running a temperature of 101, so Dr. Sneed is putting him on 750 mg. of Levaquin. We were told by Baptist, if Mike needs the tubes in sooner (like over the weekend), it will most likely have to be done without anesthesia, which in the past, has been very rough on Mike.

We would appreciate your continued prayers.

"The Lord is a strong fortress. The godly run to Him and are safe." Proverbs 18:10

Pray Against Infection

Please be praying for Mike. The procedure to replace his stents isn't scheduled until Tuesday at noon. Mike's jaundice might be getting worse quickly, and we're concerned, with the level of discomfort he is already having, (more than usual pain, chills, fatigue, itching ,etc.) infection might be setting in, and he may not be able to make it to Tuesday.

Because the procedure is so uncomfortable for Mike, he asked for a specific doctor, out of a team of doctors that usually does this at Baptist, and this doctor didn't have any time on his schedule until Tuesday. Mike called the doctor's assistant this morning, letting her know of his symptoms and his concern, and she told us Dr. Allen will be on call this weekend. So, if things get worse, we're to head to Baptist Hospital emergency room and ask for Dr. Allen.

They will initially go in and insert a tube in the right side of Mike's liver, allowing it to drain into a bag on his right side. Then they will keep him overnight to watch for any signs of infection. He will then be released, and they will allow the liver to decompress. Then in about a few days to a week, if everything is functioning well, he will be scheduled to return to the hospital and they will go in to the left side of his liver. The last time this was done, the doctor was able to go ahead and replace both stents at this time, without needing to put in another tube, or decompress that side of the liver. So after another overnight stay in the hospital, Mike was able to come home.

The major concern is infection, bleeding, and any complications with anesthesia. So please be praying God will protect Mike. Thank you so much.

"Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10

7.24.2008

More Answered Prayer

Thank you for continuing to keep Mike and I, and our family in your prayers.

We have received some more good news today! Mike's tumor, though not completely gone, has now reduced to .9 centimeters...which is slightly more than a 1/4 inch. (last time it measured 1.2 centimeters, just under 1/2 inch)

In Dr. Sneed's words, "This is an outrageously, remarkable response than I had anticipated when you first walked in here!" Obviously, God is working in our midst! Dr. Sneed isn't sure if what is showing up on the scan now, is tumor, or scar tissue, but for safe measures, he wants to continue with a couple of more treatments.

There was additional conversation about us returning to MD Anderson, to consult again about surgery. I guess the thought is, if it is tumor or scar tissue, it's better to have it completely gone, or out. Mike and I are a little confused why Dr. Sneed thinks the outcome of another consultation would be any different, than what it was in Dec/Jan., but we're willing to do whatever is best for Mike. Dr. Sneed didn't feel a surgical consult, at either Baptist or UAMS, would be helpful. Nothing was scheduled today, because we were interrupted with the return of Mike's lab report, so we're not really sure where this leaves us, on the trip to MD Anderson. (Added later: We see Dr. Sneed again next Thursday, July 31st.)

So, we were ready to go back to the treatment lab, to continue treatments today, when in the midst of the exam, Mike's labs were handed to Dr. Sneed, and we were told they were abnormal. (you can't be treated if your labs are not good) His bilirubin count was up to 5.1, indicating that his biliary stents are malfunctioning again. That could possibly explain why Mike has been feeling so bad this last week. Dr. Sneed also noticed Mike was a little jaundice. So we are now waiting to find out when Mike will be going into Baptist to have surgery to replace the stents in his liver. Dr. Sneed wanted it done tomorrow, or this weekend, but it's looking more like it will take place Monday. (We have now learned the surgery will be Tuesday, at 10 a.m. It will require an overnight stay. It is likely he will have tubes for a few days, and then will need to go back, and have the tubes surgically removed another day.)

Surgery, to replace the stents, isn't anything unexpected. We were told Mike would likely need them replaced within 5-7 months...and the last time he had them done was last January. But, it has been sort of a kick in the gut to Mike..because he was hoping to hear everything was gone today and the treatments were over. Also, because this procedure to replace the stents is so hard on him, he's pretty down, constantly facing getting this done. If another trip to MD Anderson, could get rid of Mike having to repeatedly get this procedure done, and lead him to be cancer free/treatment free, then it would be well worth it.

How you can pray:
First, praise God that the tumor continues to respond to treatment and that it is getting smaller. God is caring for us in such a way that even our own doctor is marveling at what is happening. Continue to pray that God will completely remove this tumor and restore Mike to full health.

Second, please remember Mike and I in your prayers over these next couple of days as we get these stents replaced and Mike to feeling better. The liver is such a delicate organ, that any kind of procedure to where this tumor is located, is very dangerous. Please pray the anesthesia will work well for Mike, and recovery will be easy. We won't know until we get in there, if Mike will have to come out of the hospital with tubes and bags for awhile, or if they will be able to do the replacement all at one time. But, if he comes out with tubes and bags, it is harder on both of us. So please pray that we will have the strength that will be necessary to get him back on his feet.

Thirdly, please pray that if another trip to MD Anderson could bring about a better solution to all of this, that everything will fall into place and we won't be making any unnecessary trips, wasting time, energy and money.

And lastly, please continue to pray for the special request I mentioned yesterday, concerning Mike's unemployment and insurance.

My heart is so overwhelmed when I think about your faithfulness to stand by our side in all of this. It is such a comfort to know we have so many friends and family who care about us and want the best for us. Thank you for being our support.

"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7

7.23.2008

Special Prayer Request

"When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up--the flames will not consume you." Isaiah 43:2

Mike is in bed sick today. He woke up this morning with his stomach upset, so he took some Phenagren and has slept a good part of the day. It has been a rough week for Mike, so I'm not surprised by his feeling bad today. He has felt pretty bad all week. It could be symptoms from his last treatment, or it could be he has been so anxious and concerned about these scan results, that this is what is causing the problem.

I have felt at peace up until now, but tomorrow morning is going to be really rough, waiting for our name to be called for Mike's appointment, and waiting for Dr. Sneed to walk into the room. I can't describe how difficult that moment is, every appointment day, but especially tomorrow.

Lab will be at 9 a.m. The appointment is at 10 a.m. I'm concerned about the results, but I'm more concerned about Mike's reaction, if the results are anything more than what he wants to hear. I know we can trust in God and your prayers to hold us up, to face this giant, and do what we need to do.

There is one more matter of prayer I'd like to ask of you. I can not give any specifics at the moment, but would really appreciate your prayers, concerning Mike's job situation, our health insurance, etc. Please pray for God to provide the best way to take care of this, and open doors only He can.

God has been so good to us and has blessed us beyond measure. We are so grateful to Him for resolving our son and daughter-in-law's situation, with a job here locally. Mike and I can not thank you enough for faithfully staying on your knees for our family.

"If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes." Mark 9:23

7.22.2008

Overwhelmingly Grateful!

We just heard from Matt this morning. He was offered the job position with ANO, as long as he passes all of the screenings (physical, psychological exams, etc.)! We are so overwhelmingly grateful to God, and to all of you, who have been praying with us on this matter.

"Thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Corinthians 15:57

7.20.2008




Mike commented to me yesterday, his pain and fatigue has seemed a little more intense with this last treatment, than the previous ones. He has been fairly uncomfortable the past couple of days. He's trying to stay on schedule taking his pain medication, and resting more than usual.

Seeing Mike's grandson's is always a good dose of medicine to keep his spirits up, and it has especially helped this week, with having to wait for scan results. Drew has just learned how to say the word "Grandpa", so you can just imagine the smile that puts on Mike face. (pictures are of Mike last evening with Drew) Mike is convinced the pain feels less when Ethan and Drew are around.

We are still waiting for results regarding Matt and his employment opportunitues. We hope to hear something in the next day or so.

Thank you for continuing to trust God with us for Mike's scan results and Matt's job situation. Please continue to pray God will sustain us with His grace and mercy.


"He will give His people strength. He will bless them with peace." Psalm29:11

7.19.2008

Before Goody's in Russellville closed, Corporate told Mike he could have his desk and artwork from his office. It had been sitting in our garage until yesterday. Our son, Matt, and our son-in-law, Zac, moved out the old desk we had and replaced it with Mike's office furniture. I'm hoping in some small way this will help Mike to feel he's got a familiar workplace to go, until he's well enough to get a full time job again.

Thank you for praying for our family.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 4:6-7

7.17.2008

Mike's scan yesterday went as planned. No problems...other than both of us being simply tired from making the trip.

We won't receive any results most likely until next Thursday. If Dr. Sneed decided to order a PET scan, in the case that the tumor wasn't seen on the CT anymore, it's more likely he would see Mike first, then order the scan for another day.

The anxiety of waiting, and wondering, is already getting to Mike, so this is going to be a LONG week. I'm a little worried Mike is looking for the above results, and is already hoping not to have anymore chemotherapy. I'm just trusting God will give us the strength to deal with whatever outcome we receive.

I'm comforted, knowing so many of you are keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you. I will keep you updated as soon as we learn anything new.

"He gives power to the tired and worn out, and strength to the weak." Isaiah 40:29

7.16.2008

"I know the plans I have for you...plans for your welfare, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
Today Mike will be having a CT Scan in Little Rock. Please pray that God will comfort us as we wait to learn what progress Mike has made, and He will prepare our hearts for the report. Thank you.

7.15.2008

Some days are just better than others. Today is a better day!

Mike is feeling better and he isn't as down as he was yesterday. He spent this morning devising a plan to network with his professional friends, and resolved some disability issues that have kept his stomach in knots for a few days. This past weekend, and yesterday, he was in somewhat of a tailspin.

There has been so much to adjust to. We are doing our best, coping with everything coming our way, trying to have a positive testimony, and keeping everyone informed. Unfortunately, some days knock us off our feet, and yesterday was one of them. Thank you for your understanding, your continued prayers and encouragement.

Mike's part time job will be from 4-7 p.m.-Monday thru Friday's, so that will leave his days open for doctor appointments, treatments, etc., and when that becomes familiar to him, it should help give him purpose to his days and make time pass a little easier.

Tomorrow we head to Little Rock for the CT. We plan to treat ourselves to lunch after the scan, and then hope to have a little fun shopping for Drew's birthday present, if Mike doesn't wear out too quickly.

Please remember us in your prayers. We don't expect to hear anything until Mike's appointment with Dr. Sneed, July 24th. But there was talk a few weeks ago, if the CT returned showing no tumor, a PET scan might be ordered to double-check for any signs of cancer.

Thank you for carrying us with your prayers and we will continue to keep you updated.

"I called to the Lord in my distress, and I cried to my God for help. From His temple He heard my voice, and my cry to Him reached His ears." Psalm 18:6

7.14.2008

"Because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:3-4

It's a difficult week. I'm struggling knowing what to say, or even how to ask you to pray for us. The weight of everything is just feeling a little heavy. Please continue to remember us in your prayers.

"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

7.13.2008

Saturday turned out to be a difficult day. Mike hasn't been sleeping well the last couple of nights, he's had a lot on his mind, has been having trouble regulating his body temperature, and has increased pain in his feet. So he's had an "off" day or two, and has been a little discouraged.

Please pray for extra strength and grace to get over this bump in the road. Thank You.

"O Lord, you are my light! You make my darkness bright." 2 Samuel 22:29

7.11.2008

Anniversary Week

Mike has been feeling pretty good the past couple of days. His symptoms are under control with his medications and he has been back to doing some routine things, like visiting his mom, taking short walks, and playing his drums.

Sunday marks the one year anniversary when this journey began. It's hard to look back, but it's such a blessing to see all God has carried us through. It's kind of ironic Mike's next CT scan is taking place this same week. The scan is weighing a little heavily on our minds. We want to be hopeful, without getting our expectations too high. Waiting the eight days, to learn the results, won't be easy. We would appreciate your prayers in this area.

Mike's job with Goody's ended formally yesterday, although he is committed through August 9th in tidying things up for them here. It's been a little sad for Mike, but he's very grateful for the almost 8 years he had with them. They were very good to us, especially this past year during Mike's illness.

We are still trying to work things out as far as Mike working part-time, Mike's disability, and carrying the COBRA medical insurance. There have been some problems with getting all of this set up, in such a way, so we don't have a lot of worry and concern. We learned recently that beginning in August, Mike is only going to be able to keep 1/2 of whatever income he brings in part-time. The disability insurance company plans to keep the other half. That isn't quite working out like we had hoped, so we're looking into other possible solutions and would appreciate your prayers in our making the best decisions.

Our son, Matt, was offered the job in NW Arkansas today. He has a week to make his decision. Matt is praying he'll be offered a position with ANO, and hopefully before he has to give his decision to the other company. He would really like to remain in this area so he and his wife can continue building their home. Matt is grateful though, that he has received at least one offer. Please continue to pray God will work out all of the details, and that Matt, Jill and Drew can have some peace of mind.

Thank you for your concern, compassion, and constant prayers. Your support has made this a less lonely journey.

"That Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height--to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:17-19

7.09.2008

Matt's interview this morning with ANO went well. There was a panel of four men who interviewed Matt, and he feels he did his very best. He told me he has a peace about everything, and just feels grateful to have the stress behind him. He was told he would have an answer within 10 days.

The other position, that he went to Nashville for, is undetermined still. Matt was led to believe that trip was only a formality in receiving the offer, but Matt met with two men up there, and took a physical and drug test before returning home. He was told he should hear about a decision within a week.

Thank you so much for praying for Matt, and for Mike's mom, Cecile. We spoke again with mom last night, and she is feeling so much better.

Mike is feeling much better today physically. The side effects from the chemo have finally tapered off, and he's back to feeling his "new normal", as he calls it. Thank you for keeping us lifted by your prayers.

"Let your roots grow down into Him and draw up nourishment from Him. See that you go on growing in the Lord, and become strong and vigorous in the truth you were taught. Let your lives overflow with joy and thanksgiving for all He has done." Colossians 2:7

7.08.2008

Matt has made it safely home. Thank you for praying for his safety!

First off, Matt is in Nashville in his interview. We learned he is exhausted from being awake most of last night with heartburn and stomach trouble. So he's in the interview feeling completely drained. Please pray for his safety in returning home. He is driving.

Please also pray that God will help Matt rest between the time he gets home, and 8 a.m. tomorrow morning, when he has his interview with ANO. Please pray he will be both mentally and physically alert. Please pray that peace will be over Matt, Jill's and Drew's home this evening.

Mike is slowly rounding a corner and doing a little better. His energy level is really low right now, but it generally is, at this point after a treatment. We're hoping the next day or two will be better for him.

Mike's CT scan has been scheduled for Wednesday, July 16th, in LR. We won't be receiving any results until his appointment with Dr. Sneed, July 24th.

Every scan is difficult, waiting for the results, but this next one is going to be more than difficult. We have had the last two scans indicate shrinkage; by half, each time. So there are expectations. Mike wants the tumor GONE! Also, Mike is growing weary of all of the treatments, and the side effects from those. He's willing to continue on with treatment, but it would be easier with an end in sight.

We know we don't have to say, we need everyone on their knees for the results from this next CT. We truly need and want a miracle! Thank you for trusting God with us, for this result. Thank you for asking God, for the strength we're going to need, to sit that week out waiting, and in those moments in the doctor's office, hearing what the results are. Please pray God will prepare our hearts to accept whatever His will is for our life, and His perfect peace will quiet our hearts and give us hope.

"Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10

7.06.2008

Mike's doing good today. He got up and made it into church this morning, but came home and got back into bed afterwards. He's fighting to keep up his usual routine. He just peters out pretty quickly. His stomach still continues to be sensitive, so he's taking the Phenagren to keep it under control. He said he feels like someone heavy is sitting on his chest whenever he tries to move and his usual achiness is bugging him. It helped that the mens tennis finals were on TV today. It gave him a great game to watch.

Please pray for Mike this week, that he will feel well enough to finish up his job with Goody's Distribution. It's going to be difficult for him. Also, please pray for the adjustment to his new part-time job, when that begins. He is grateful for the position, but like everything new, there's adjustment.

We called and spoke with Mike's mom, Cecile, today. She is doing so much better. She is still taking the antibiotics, so we pray this bout with Pnuemonia will be finished soon. Thank you so much for praying for her. It was hard seeing Mike so worried for his mom. I'm so grateful she is making improvement and things are looking better for her.

Matt is preparing to leave tomorrow for Nashville for his "formal" interview for the job in NW Arkansas. Please pray for his safety and peace of mind as he interviews. Then on Wednesday he will have his interview with ANO at 8 a.m. Please pray that he will communicate his desire for this position well, and that he will be able to discern God's will for him and his family.

The kids have really had a lot to deal with in their own lives, as well as along with their dad being sick. It hurts them so much to see their dad this way, not being able to do anything to help him feel better, and feeling so helpless. Emotionally, I think they are exhausted, and I believe it's beginning to weigh on them more heavily than they would probably admit. I know Matt, especially, has had so much to deal with. I'm more worried for him. Please pray God's peace will flood the kids hearts and minds, and that Mike and I can do all we can to lift their burden, and support them and their families as best as we can.

Thank you for your continued prayers and support. Where would we be without you to lean on? We truly are grateful.

"Fear not, for I am with you, be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10

7.05.2008

A Better Day

Today seems to be a better day for Mike. He has been up moving around more, already taking a walk, and drumming. He says he's feeling a little achy, probably from the Neulasta injection, but his stomach has seemed to settle down, at least for now.

Yesterday evening, the kids and the grandkids were over, and Mike soared on the adrenaline of seeing them. The grandkids are always the best form of medicine for Mike. We had a nice Fourth of July together, with the kids preparing most of the food. Matt bought a few fireworks to celebrate the holiday, but Ethan wore out before dark, and Drew was terrified after the first sparkler. So grandma and Drew watched fireworks on TV, which is about as close as Drew wanted to get!

Thank you for continuing to think about our family and praying for us.

"And now, just as you trusted Christ to save you, trust Him, too, for each day's problems; live in vital union with Him." Colossians 2:6

7.04.2008

Mike's Mom is Improving



Mike's mom, Cecile, walked down to the nursing home dining room today, which was WONDERFUL to see, because it shows she's improving. The antibiotic seems to be helping her Pnuemonia and so are your prayers. Thank you.
Mike has stayed in bed so far today, being sick to his stomach. This treatment seems to be one where the side effects have hit almost immediately after treatment, instead of waiting a couple of days afterwards. Maybe Sunday and Monday will be easier for him. He's hoping to feel well enough later this afternoon to eat burgers with the kids.
Thank you for remembering our family in your thoughts and prayers. Happy Fourth of July!
"For God is the King of all the earth; sing to Him a psalm of praise." Psalm 47:7

7.03.2008

Mike saw his oncologist today. Everything was good with his labs. Mike had dropped about 3 pounds but the doctor didn't say anything.

Dr. Sneed wants to schedule the CT scan for 3-4 weeks. We don't have the date yet. There was discussion about "the plan" after this next CT. Dr. Sneed wants to spread out Mike's chemo treatments and CT scans, to every four weeks for treatment and every 6 months for CT scans...but Mike doesn't like that idea and wants to remain aggressive. They left it at, they'll discuss things further after this next scan.

Dr. Sneed is trying to give Mike a better quality of life and protect his limbs from permanent Neuropathy damage. Mike feels he's handling everything fine, and doesn't want to do anything but go after this tumor aggressively. I guess we'll see who wins this argument when the results return.

Mike began feeling pretty bad when we got home from the doctors office. His face is flushed with a reddish tone, but he's not running any fever. His stomach is feeling "off" again and he's pretty weak. He came home and slept for a couple of hours and hasn't been able to do much but sit in the recliner since.

Mike's mom doesn't seem to be improving yet, so we would appreciate your continued prayers for her. Also, please pray Mike will get through these next couple of days as comfortably as possible, and that he won't pick up any viruses.

Thank you so much for keeping our family in your thoughts and prayers. Please trust God with us that we may get our miracle in a few weeks, when the scan results come in. Mike's hopeful for it being completely gone. July 13th will mark the one year anniversary for us, when this challenge began.

"Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together. I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:3-4

7.02.2008

Mike had his 12th chemotherapy treatment today. We set a record finishing his IV bags. Usually it takes 4 1/2 hours to get through all four bags, but today he got everything in only 3 1/2 hours. It could have been because Mike was really the only one getting a treatment. It was good to get out of there a little sooner.

We see the oncologist tomorrow morning and then Mike will get his Neulasta injection. We're expecting to schedule the CT scan date tomorrow.

Right now, Mike is feeling the normal jitters following a treatment, and the usual weakness/nausea in his stomach. He came home and slept for a good two hours and has woke up feeling a little better.

While Mike was taking his treatment, I went to visit his mom. She is definitely uncomfortable on her left side, which seems to be the side the Pnuemonia is in. They have put her on a stronger antibiotic so we're hoping she'll begin to feel better soon. They are also giving her a little pain medication because she's sore from coughing the past week. We're a little concerned because she isn't getting up and moving. I spoke with the RN on duty, and she didn't act like there was any concern and just told me she felt the antibiotic would help. So we would appreciate your continued prayers for her.

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." Ephesians 3:20

7.01.2008


Please pray for Mike's mother, Cecile, who is 89, in a nursing home, and has developed Pnuemonia today.
Monday was a busy day! Mike and I were up late last night trying to process everything that had taken place in the last few days and feeling so overwhelmingly grateful.

Mike learned yesterday Goody's Russellville Distribution Center will completely close their doors July 11th. We are tremendously blessed for God providing a part time position for Mike, especially before Goody’s doors actually close. In fact, he stopped by the new job yesterday just to say hi and to thank them for the opportunity.

As Goody's comes to a close, Mike is beginning to feel a little down, saying goodbye to friends there, and saying goodbye to a "normal" way of working for awhile. This isn’t Mike’s first layoff, but it is his first having cancer, and not being strong enough to go out and get another full time job. Mike is strong and will get through all of this, but I wanted to ask you to join me in praying that his heart will stay encouraged and hopeful.

Our blog was mainly set up to keep family and friends updated on Mike's health and to help them know how to pray for him and our family. But a blog, can have a wide audience, and there have been a few things taking place simultaneously with Mike's health problems, that I haven't felt as free to share with a world wide audience. A couple of those issues, have been some health issues of my own, and some legal matters I've been dealing with since my dad passed away last August. Neither one of these issues deserves too much attention on this blog. But last night, as Mike and I were feeling deeply grateful for God answering prayer in these small issues, I couldn't help but wonder, maybe I was denying full praise to Him.

God has shown His mercy to us, time and time again, in areas blogged and unblogged. “He is the air that we breath and the ground beneath our feet.” He has sustained us with his mercy and grace, and your prayers have been paramount in supporting us. Thank you for loving us through all of this.

Tomorrow is "Chemo Day". So may every drop of those chemicals do a Mighty blessing in Mike's body!

"Blessed is he who has regard for the weak; FOR YOU, LORD, deliver him in times of trouble. You, Lord, will protect him and preserve his life; You will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes." Psalm 41:1-3